Doom scrolling
Nov. 6th, 2020 03:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
offcntrI woke up in a sweat at 4 am Wednesday. Four years ago, I'd gone to bed feeling confident that the presidential election was on track; Hilary was leading. No one took Trump seriously. When I woke early the next day, I checked the news on my tablet.
You know what happened next.
This year, I didn't want to get my hopes up; didn't want to break my heart again. The polls were optimistic, but then, they had been four years past. I checked online on election day to be sure Denise's and my votes had been received (they had), then busied myself in the studio, glazing. Stayed away from the news entirely, reading myself to sleep with one of my comfort reads, Martha Wells' Murderbot Diaries books, specifically Network Effect. (Yes, the irony of reading about a security android who compulsively views entertainment media to cope with the real world did not escape me.)
Then the cat woke me up at 4 am, and I couldn't get back to sleep.
I tossed a few times, turned several more. Finally, I grabbed the tablet and paged to NPR.org. Biden was leading. I managed to fall asleep again.
Since then, I've been glazing all week, and looking at the news at most once a day. Finally finished everything this afternoon, read the latest on NPR.
And I can breathe again.
You know what happened next.
This year, I didn't want to get my hopes up; didn't want to break my heart again. The polls were optimistic, but then, they had been four years past. I checked online on election day to be sure Denise's and my votes had been received (they had), then busied myself in the studio, glazing. Stayed away from the news entirely, reading myself to sleep with one of my comfort reads, Martha Wells' Murderbot Diaries books, specifically Network Effect. (Yes, the irony of reading about a security android who compulsively views entertainment media to cope with the real world did not escape me.)
Then the cat woke me up at 4 am, and I couldn't get back to sleep.
I tossed a few times, turned several more. Finally, I grabbed the tablet and paged to NPR.org. Biden was leading. I managed to fall asleep again.
Since then, I've been glazing all week, and looking at the news at most once a day. Finally finished everything this afternoon, read the latest on NPR.
And I can breathe again.